just as I was warming upPosted on Mon,Jul.30th,2007 at 22:34
I feel mostly: mellow
What do I hear?: kids chattering in the kitchen
I volunteered this past summer at the Children's Art Camp through a local museum.
Went to Horn Island for the first time and wondered how I have lived on the coast since I have been 13 and nobody ever took me before, but then remembered the type of life I had at that time for 2 years and then the years I was married with someone who wanted to control or hide me and then how I ran away basically after the divorce to another country in all my spare time, and it all made since that I had not ever been before to any of our little local islands until then.
I met a couple that has basically adopted me into their family. We spend spare time and weekends together. Literally, I have met their extended family. My entry about the details here is a lazy quickie. We go out, go to house parties and barbeques, with them introducing me to all their friends as we go along. Or we just laze around in their home with our kids all around us :-)
I met someone last month I think I just might be falling in love with quicker than he is willing to have me. I don't know what to do with the times we are not together since I want to have him constantly. It's pitiable, truly. I won't write about this openly because it is far too intimate and current. Can you fall in love this fast? I haven't even whispered the possibility to him of course. I'll at least be honest and admit it here in my own written world.
I tried building a My Space but it doesn't feel at all like home. I don't use it so far. I am remembering how much I enjoy writing in this livejournal, and can't exactly say why I stopped writing so much. Hiding I guess.
I think I lost all my poetry. I can't find the disk I saved it on and the original computer was rebuilt. I used to nag myself to get them on paper but didn't. How can I start all that writing over again? I feel like I lost a part of me, my memories because everything I wrote was from life experience.
I am reading Anne Sexton's poems right now. I bought her book of collected works. Have been reading a lot this summer. Just now finished "A Thousand Splendid Suns."Khaled Hasseini (spelling check on that name later). Devastating.
Now I start back to work this week and summer feels like it just melted away. Much of it in a haze.